Cries from within was my turning point. In this chapter (stage) I cried out my heart to God for answers. But He was silent and my circumstances got worse before they got better. I felt as if in a whirlwind. The tumultuous winds blowing, everything was coming at me quickly. There were decisions to make, people to see, places to go, and things to do. Frightened and trying to shield myself from the storm, I asked why over and over again.
There is Power in Asking Why…
Asking why can drive us to search for answers. In my search for answers I joined a support group and got connected to others that had gone through what I was going through. They understood me and were not judgmental. Reflecting was another way I searched for answers. Mostly I wrote. Things that I couldn’t say out loud, I could write.
Asking why can bring us closer to our belief system. My core beliefs, the very foundation of who I am had been shaken. This really scared me, and sent me searching the pages of the scripture to reaffirm my beliefs. Although my questions tested my faith, searching for significance in what I believed, ultimately comforted me with a measure of hope and peace.
Asking why may expose our vulnerability. Why didn’t anyone give me information? Everything I learned was second hand. Asking why uncovered a weakness in my communication. Something had to change. This was not a time to sit on the sideline watching others, and hoping they would honor my role as mother.
Asking why may bring us face to face with ourselves. Deep inside was more strength than I had ever known. You see, my safe place, my inner world where I retreated for years, had been invaded. Standing in the shadows, letting others speak for me was no longer an option. I had to speak for Leslie. It was my duty as her mother!
Asking why can open our minds to knowledge. A connection to my inner strength revealed something greater than my fears, my love for my daughter. Was it frightening? Yes! The fear didn’t stop me, though. It propelled me to step out, grab hold and learn how to do what needed to be done.
What are your cries from within? What questions are you asking? What is it that you can learn about yourself in this questioning period? Purchase one of my books and follow my stages: A Personal Journey Finding Wings With Shattered Pieces.
Think about it and I’ll talk with you next week!